Thursday, October 1, 2009

Sunshine

Nap

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away"


Once, during the times we were trying so hard to have a baby I had a dream. In it, I was holding such a lovely little baby. It was a little girl; she must have been around 18-20 months old and she was sitting in my lap. I was at a bbq in the summer. I remember she had 2 little ponytails in her hair...short little ones. I remember feeling the warm sun on my skin and the top of her head was warm from it...I had nestled my chin onto her head and could breathe in the smell of her shampoo. I felt so much love and affection in that moment. I felt so content with the world and that everything was perfect. I felt a love I'd never felt before. And then I woke up.
I lay in the dark feeling so sad I cried. It had felt so real. And then it was gone. I never forgot that dream, nor did I forget the feelings I had in it. I heard the song "You are my Sunshine" again today and the second verse made me take pause and reminded me of my dream:

"The other night dear, as I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
But when I awoke, dear, I was mistaken
So I hung my head and I cried."

I always sing that song to Paige before her naps and I never made the connection about the second verse until today. Listen to the song version we like here. I'm so happy Little P. is with us. I think of that dream when I watch her sleep and my heart swells even greater than the moment before. And, just because, here is Paige in my favorite hippo jammies. Soon they won't fit and I just had to document her wearing them. :)

Hippo Jammies

6 comments :

Stephanie said...

That is so sweet, and that second verse, which I've heard many time, has never resonated with me until now. Adorable hippo pajamas! :)

Home Sweet Home Place said...

Your post brought tears to my eyes. Thankfully, I didn't have any trouble conceiving Grace and I want you to know that I never EVER take that fact for granted.

You need this toy for Paige. http://www.kidspreferred.com/product/0/90501/_/Sunshine_Light-Up_Pullstring_Musical
Grace has it. In fact, she has two. One for home and one for her car seat. She LOVES it. It plays You are my sunshine.

Megan said...

That toy is so cute! Thanks for the tip! I've enjoyed reading your posts about Grace! She's such a cutie-pie. :)

Lor said...

She is so CUTE!

Theresa said...

Hi Megan, Just wanted to post you a note about 'You are My Sunshine', as I too sing this song constantly to my little boy, Balin. I singing it to him to soothe him before his naps and it works like a charm. He would often smile at a very early age as I began to sing it to him.

While I, like 'Home Sweet Home Place' didn't have trouble conceiving, I too never take it for granted, as I have a dear family member who struggled for five years to conceive. She just gave birth in June to her son, my cousin, after several IFV attempts. I am hoping they are on a roll now and the second child will come easily and as a SUPRISE!

I wish you all the luck with gorgeous Paige. I love her name. I wanted to use the name if we were to have a little girl. I find it very appropriate for you too. I know its a bit of a play on words but Paige has begun or added a new page for you in your book of life ;)

Bless you all x

Montanna said...

In love with her crib bedding and her jammies! I can never seem to find as cute stuff for my son.

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